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Kylie Was Right: My 2016 Roundup

You think by the time you reach your 20s, you've got most things figured out. By the time you're 30, you think you're this beacon of knowledge that has so much life lessons to impart. Nope, even though you're a full grown adult who does adult things like be a great citizen who pays their taxes, the universe still makes you feel most days that you're very much like Jon Snow: You know nothing.

At the very least I thought I knew better and will always make the right choices. I thought everything in my life is solid. I thought this was it for me. I thought this was as good (and sometimes, as bad) as it's going to get. Then at the most unexpected times (walang alarm, walang anything), the universe throws you curve balls and make you realize you are forever a child in this school that is called life. (Cheesy ba? K. Hahaha.)

1. Not everyone who claims they understand you really understand you.

I'm sure at some degree, a friend has been through what you're going through, but the thing to keep in mind is no one will completely feel the same way as you. It's comforting to know that you've got people you can count on but that doesn't stop them from forming personal opinions about you. That's just the way it is. It's the most natural thing in the world. I don't even know if I'm making sense right now. LOL. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's utterly heartbreaking when the truth was they never really got you all along.

2. The weight of the truth that's perfectly encapsulated by this tweet:
The XBF (What? We're still talking about him?! It's almost 2017! IKR.) certainly upped the ante of being an a$$hole when he messaged me once again late this year to... *dun dun dun* borrow money from me which is, and I quote, "not just for me but also for Adam." Now you're wondering who's Adam and why is he my concern? Adam is his son, and babies are the cutest, purest things, but I don't understand how I am even within the stratosphere of his options of people he could borrow money from. Everything about this aspect of my life is exhausting and I know I shouldn't be talking about this here but I kinda want to shout it to the world. (Let's see how long I'll keep this up here.) Anyway, that's that. Unfortunately, there will be a particular few in your life who would be an ultimate pain for a long time whether you like it or not.

3. You have to take sides.

I had 2 close friends that went through a break-up this year and I tried so hard to be equally a friend to them. He shared secrets to me and she did as well, I was both their confidante. Throughout the whole ordeal, there was a lot of he said, she said and somehow I ended up sharing the blame and the drama. That was just too stressful. Don't put yourself in the middle of the chaos and pick a side, or if you want to maintain that you're Switzerland, distance yourself from all of it. Because in cases like this, sooner or later, something's gotta give. Don't let it be you. Hahaha.

4. I am single and it's not the end of the world. Duh.

This is not even some in denial shit or things like that. I am really at peace with my singlehood and am actually happy about it. As that line from gnash's song goes: "you gotta be happy alone to be happy together" and this year I found that sense of 'nothing is broken and nothing is missing and I am whole.' You see, I was emotionally dependent for a looong time and I wouldn't have even imagined that this feeling of contentment would exist. It's just that in life, we find satisfaction and fulfillment on different things. We were never meant to be measured on the same stick. I leave all the relationship worrying to my friends who constantly imagine scenarios of how I'd meet my future beau. LOL. The conversations we have about it are hilarious.

5. The world is indeed my oyster and I still have a lot of exploring to do.

Beside the local travel opportunities I've had this year (Pangasinan, Bataan, annual Baguio thing, and impromptu trips to Tagaytay and Batangas), I was able to, for the first time, go out of the country. Destination? Hong Kong! I'm not going to gush so much about it here because I'm supposed to blog about the whole experience BUT going through all the photos I took there and being reminded of the little details makes me anxious and sad and make me miss it even more. I don't know how I'll be able to do it. Hahaha. That particular trip opened my eyes to the beauty of 'out there,' how there's soooooo much I haven't seen and experienced and it's just there waiting for me all this time. I also fell in love more with Asian cinema! I think I've watched more Chinese/Taiwanese/Korean/Japanese/local films this year than any other year in my life! Same goes with music! Ugh, a wide horizon of possibilities!

6. This year brought out the worst (and I'd like to think, the best) in us.

2016 has been the year that all the unthinkable things happened: Marcos buried in Libingan ng mga Bayani in the shadiest way possible, Trump was voted  POTUS, killings and wars are rampant, left and right, social media toxicity reached new heights, losing friends over political views, things we conveniently pretend do not exist slaps us hard in the face to remind us that it still does, and a lot of other issues on a national and global scale that I don't want to enumerate anymore. This year has been very challenging on this aspect. Everyone has opinions but very few are willing to listen. The amount of hate I've seen on Facebook is just sad. On the bright side, a whole new level of wit and humor arose from all these political turmoil (yay for Twitter people!), people are more vigilant and aware and more accepting of change (indie film line-up at MMFF this year YESSS!)

7. I am ultra blessed.

No matter how corny that sounds, that's my biggest realization this year. It may not be the same on a macro level but this 2016, I am happy, I am (sort of) healthy, I finally saw Death Cab for Cutie and Bon Iver live, I enjoyed more art (films, music festivals, even painted!) and I have family and friends that are so amazing -- I could not even explain how amazing they all are. There will always be difference of views and opinions, but at the end of day, they're still home and they got your back. And for that I will always be grateful. Always. 

Overall, 2016 is a good year. Scratch that! It has been exceptional, certainly one for the books! I've been to so many adventures this year, I already lost count of the good things that came my way! Cheers to the new year that's about to unfold and tight hugs to everyone who has managed to finish this blog post! Happy New Year, you! Always be kind to yourself and to other people! 😊🎉🎉🎉