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What I Think About When I Think About Dating

1. I absolutely dread dating because I don't know how to.

2. I really don't know how to. I've never actually dated. Anyone. Ever. I mean prior to being in a relationship. My last relationship went on for 8 years. And it was my first. So yes. Never dated. Ever. Noob, I know.

3. I have this notion that going to a job interview and dating would feel like the same thing. Hahaha. I don't like job interviews because you have to wear uncomfortable clothes, they make me feel anxious and nervous and extra perky and sometimes (just sometimes) not myself.

4. I was reading this book, Attachments, by Rainbow Rowell and I read this line:
"He wasn't scared, exactly, to start dating again. He just couldn't visualize it. He could imagine himself a year in, at the comfortable place, the hand-at-the-small-of-the-back place. But the meeting, the making a girl like him... He was useless at all that."
 Okay. So apparently, I'm not the only one who feels that way. That pretty much sums up everything I feel.

5. I should stop thinking about this too much.

6. I remember all these dating tips guidelines that Dino told me way back. I thought it was really absurd though he had a point (on most parts). He made me think that going on a date was like being seen under a microscope where the teeniest tiniest things mattered. Ugh.

What the hell, let's just get on with it.