grub + travels + perspectives

Ice cream and cigarettes

For a few days now, I have been feeling nothing but ecstatic. I really don't know if I have gone crazy over the weekend because I know for a fact that whatever it is I'm feeling right now is not normal. Everything is way too magnified right now.

I had a long night sleep yesterday. Last week, I dreaded that moment before you go to sleep because it's like this little window of time when you get to think about a lot of things, and last week, I hated thinking about those things. Decent slumber has eluded me for a while and it surprised me that I was finally able to succumb to deep sleep yesterday. After catching a few shows on TV, my mind finally let every thought in my head go and I dozed off.

I am extra bubbly/ bouncy/ cheerful/ sunny lately. And let me tell you, I'm not normally like that and I've never heard anyone describe me using those words. I am no grumpy cat but I was always the quiet one.

I always feel excited to the point that I break into a sweat. I am unconsciously fidgety and I fiddle everything I get my hands on. I mean, who does that? You know that anxious feeling you get when you're nervous about something? I am in that state all the time. It's like I'm anticipating something. And I can't think of any reason why I should even be excited.

I have the oddest craving for ice cream while having cigarettes. And lighting one while eating ice cream. And I don't have the slightest clue why.