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Truth Thursdays: Can't Wait No More

It was long overdue.

Believe it or not, I think I am maturing with every year that passes.

Two years ago, I was at a crossroad. I know it was a bit selfish but I just had to make a choice. It was a long time coming anyway. I can't prolong it anymore. Eventhough I knew my parents were absolutely against it, I took the plunge. I was a bit lost, I didn't quite know what I really wanted career-wise, so I worked at a call center.

Last year, I found out about the company I'm working for now. And let me just say, this was the best job I had. I realized if I pretended I wanted to still work as an engineer, if I hadn't made the move, I wouldn't be where I am now. I wouldn't be this happy. I wouldn't feel as contented.

This year, I encountered another fork in the road again. It's this specific aspect of my life that was constantly put on a hold for another individual's convenience. It was an unending carousel, a sickening time travel, but all those never really got me anywhere. I was just stuck and clueless. I knew it was selfish, again, as I chose to do some things at another person's expense but I can't wait no more. It's about time I ask the question. It's about time I stop being passive and letting the chips fall where they may and all that crap. It's about time I take a hold of the wheel.

I did. And what I learned from that experience is that not everything that you had a hard time getting is worth having. I wish I knew better from the start, I wouldn't have gone through all this trouble. But then again, we'd never know anything unless we've experienced it. I am just so happy I finally had answers. I finally knew the truth and now, I am free from it. I am at peace.

I'm glad I didn't wait any longer. I'm happy to say that it's all finally behind me.

To the person that I hurt the most when all of this happened, I am sorry. I know faults and shortcomings aren't reasons to justify but thank you for still sticking with me. I guess, it was really you all along.

"If we wait until we're ready, we'll be waiting for the rest of our lives."
- Lemony Snicket

This post is in response to Truth Thursdays' current prompt, Can't Wait No More. Truth Thursdays exists to connect people through writing. To initiate something honest, thoughtful and meaningful. If you want to know more about Truth Thursdays and how to be a part of it, read here